It’s Okay to Just Be.

Imauliaaa
2 min readSep 12, 2020
shot in 2017.

The pressure is seemingly tied around to almost every part of our existence and the perfomance isn’t just about how we manage to execute. It’s the brave faces we put on to look okay when everything’s not okay.

The pressure is a lot, and it’s wearing many of us down. In this cases, I ain’t precisely saying that a pandemic afflicts my mental issues — exactly n o t.

I would not beat myself up about it really nice being a homebody and, I did understand why I could do something seemingly loved, but somehow I need a vacation once. Dine out with my family is simply the way better.

Otherwise, this virus allows me to take self-love, incredibly important relationship: the one with myself.

Any hassle, I’m here for me, through thick and thin, no matter what. But it’s not always an easy relationship.

I’d been unknowingly mirroring myself, having books on my reading-list, brewing a cup of green tea every morning, learning to compassionate myself when times are hard — that I approach my mistakes and suffering in a gentle, rational way, without resorting to extremes. I probably recognize this pattern of my life shrinking and narrowing as everything becomes about feeling less pain.

‘there was a moment into this self-quarantine’ that I assert on my intj personality. I felt like, “ you don’t want people to see that you are not with this big entity anymore so you ain’t got shit going on.”

When I feel like I have to perform all the time or be ‘on’ sometimes I get so lost in doing that, I lost the essence of just being. Instead, I may think that my worth is dependent on what I’m able to produce or how I’m able to appear to everybody else.

we have to make sure that we are being well not just doing well

Everyone is experiencing this pandemic at the same time but processing in different way. Staying busy through distruption to my daily routines may be an opportunity to hang on to a little bit of control.

In attempting to be productive, I may end up being unproductive or even burned out — binge Netflix in-between organization and the upcoming term.

when I spend all my time running away from what I don’t want, there’s little time left running toward what I do want.

Eventually, the bottom line: there’s no right way to handle the pressure, a cutoff of boredom, and There’s no protocol for surviving and terrifying during a moment; no one has experienced before.

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Imauliaaa

not-so-good-speaker by some onlookers so here I’m!